Playing an Instrument

to my friends who were the same age as me, and yes they felt the same way. What was it - what's changed?

We came to conclusion that it was hope we had lost - the hope of a better tomorrow. When we were younger the future was always there and we'd always be young enough to change our lives and change our fortunes. that we've reached and passed the peak of our lives is a shocking one. It's too late for me now to get that degree and become a lawyer. I'm never going to go to university and then on to become a world famous brain surgeon. Don't get me wrong, I love my life and I love my family, it's just that I always thought that one day I'd make the 'big time'.

I've played guitar and sung since I was nine years old. Learning more and more songs and even writing a few of my own. I believed that one day I'd make it. Perhaps a talent scout would hear me play or I'd get around to making that demo tape and sending it off. Sadly a hundred and one other things got in the way - girls, cars, motorbikes, work, marriage and kids. I wouldn't change any of that for the world, but now I'm in my mid-thirties it's finally occurred to me that my big just not going